Sometimes I just want to sit down and wonder.

I just want to sit down and observe the things around me. I want to stop, sit down, admire and breathe in all the amazing life that surrounds me. I want to take a pause, look and wonder. Give myself the chance to see beyond what I normally see. Give myself the time to wonder about mundane presumed uninteresting things. The guy that walks his dog three or more times during the day outside my window. Is he a millionaire that does not have to work? And has all this time to get out on his flip flops and walk his dog several times a day? How many times should one walk a dog anyway? Or is this man unemployed, alone, bored out of his mind and the only thing that gives him purpose is walking his dog? Maybe the dog is all that he’s got. His one and only friend.

I just want to sit down at the beach and stare at the ocean. I want to pause and stare to the water until an orange fish jumps out to greet me. I want to sit and admire the waves crashing until I see a dolphin twirling in the water and give me a private nature show. Do dolphins even twirl? I would like to sit, look, wait and find out. Maybe if I stare long enough, I get to see a whale’s tail splashing down. I want to sit, touch the sand and feel all the tiny little grains thru my fingers. I want to caress the sand until I move the hot surface and feel the cold and humid layer beneath the topcoat.

I just want to sit down on the park’s grass and look at the trees. Maybe if I sit still long enough, that beautiful blue bird will come near me. Perhaps I’ll take bird food and it will eat off my hand. Maybe if I just sit on the grass for a while and stare at the sky, I will see animals in the clouds? Some people say they can see all kinds of shapes, I only see blur... maybe it is because I don’t pause, sit and contemplate long enough.

I just want to sit down, pause and observe. Be alone with myself and truly experience that long lost thing called privacy. Hear my thoughts. Listen to my mind, calmly unscramble my ideas. Maybe if I listen to my thoughts long enough, I will have the greatest idea of all. An idea that has always been there, but only now I can clearly see it!

Most things in life we get when we stand up, we walk, we go after. People say “get your foot on the door”, “Get out of that chair”, “don’t waste time”, “don’t miss an opportunity”. Some people work so hard all their lives, day and night, until they can finally have that office in the 50th floor of that amazing building. Just so they can sit down and stare at the view. Some people struggle and climb the mount Everest for days and nights, with a chance of getting hurt or even dying. Just so they can reach the top to sit down and contemplate. Why do we need to go so far and wait so long to sit and stare. Some people spend their whole lives trying to get to that particular place that they think they need to be, so they can finally sit down and wonder: “am I happy now? Or do I need something else?”. Some other people search and search, but they never get to that place.

You know... I’m not different than anyone out there. I am also striving to find that place that I told myself I need to be at. That place I stablished as my finish line. That place where I win the game and I can just sit down and feel accomplished. Like most people, I am also standing, walking and sometimes running so fast that life feels like a roller coaster. Maybe I will get to that place, maybe I will not. Maybe I have all the time in the world, maybe time is running out. I do not know. I do not have the time to stop and figure that out. I do not have the peace and quiet to clear my mind and sort things out. I know where I am going, I set that finished line a while back. Am I going to make it? I do not know. All I know is that I need to just keep going, because I need to go, I need to get to places, I need to get things done, I need to pick up, stand up, clean up, dress up, move up, and hurry up. I know what I need to do. But today, just for right now, I want to slow down, calm down, sit down, take a pause and stare. And enjoy the now.